I find myself coming upon the end of a season and starting a whole new one. While part of me, the larger part of me, is thrilled and ready to end one season and step into a new one, there's this other part of me that doesn't quite want anything to change yet. And sometimes this part feels like the larger one...how can they both be the larger parts?
I am currently commuting back and forth between Fort Worth and Tulsa. When I'm in Tulsa, I call Fort Worth home, and home it truly is. But just the other day I referred to Tulsa as home and then caught myself..."No, Tulsa is NOT home." But it got me to thinking...
While I would say my heart is in Texas with my family and a boy I'm quite fond of, a huge piece of my heart has been given to the city of Tulsa, Oklahoma, for 4 years. I've made most of my life friends in Tulsa, I've laughed hardest in Tulsa with those friends, I've shed innumerable tears in Tulsa, I've fallen in love in Tulsa, and I've chosen my career path while living in Tulsa. All that to say... maybe as cliche as it sounds, "home is where the heart is."
As I look forward to the next season, it's hard to push forward because I have a couple homes and the thought of moving out of one of them... well, it's hard. But the good news is, there's a new home wherever the road leads.
Home may be here.
Home may be there.
But I really think home could be everywhere.
As Mumford and Sons so beautifully states, "where you invest your love, you invest your life."
Home is where you invest your love.
So the name of a city really has nothing to do with it... home is where the heart is.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Becoming a Big Girl
It's the beginning of a new era.
A season in my life is nearly to a close as I finish my Bachelor of Science degree in Elementary Education and graduate. April 30, 2011 is a big day for me as it sums up all that I have worked to achieve for very nearly my entire schooling thus far. When I walk across the stage in now less than 4 months, I choose whether or not any more diplomas reach my fingertips. There is no more required school, monotonous American History classes, which I must say that it's quite sad how little American History I have memorized when I think I've had that class every year since I was 8 years old.
A new chapter starts. 2011 will be a launching year filled with new assignments. In a tight job market, I will find a job. While reading Proverbs 2 as it corresponded with the 2nd of January, the 21st verse spoke to my heart.
"For only the godly will live in the land, and those with integrity will remain in it."
In an economy still working so hard to improve itself, God has promised the "land" to the godly. For those unemployed or soon looking for full time jobs, preferably in a field our hearts are passionate about, there is a promise of occupation. Occupation of the land in our chosen occupation. I have seen the Lord's faithfulness so huge in 2010. It's sad how often I look back and see God's hand in my life after the fact when I should have been sure that his hand was mediating each and every circumstance.
A friend recently said she doesn't like making New Year's resolutions because that opens the door to failure. Unfortunately, you could place me here as well. If I make a resolution and don't follow through, it's one more item I didn't get to check off. I'd rather have New Years "options." That way if they don't take place no one really feels defeated.
But what's a year without goals? And I do have a few...
2011 will be a year with big changes.
I get a big girl diploma that gives me a big girl degree.
I get to put my big girl pants on and get a big girl job.
I get to pay big girl bills with the big girl money a full time job with a salary gives.
This is the start of a new decade, metaphorically and literally. Much change coming my way. This year I go from being called "Nicole" on a daily basis to the ever esteemed "Miss Allen." And you know you've become an adult when people aren't using your first name anymore.
A season in my life is nearly to a close as I finish my Bachelor of Science degree in Elementary Education and graduate. April 30, 2011 is a big day for me as it sums up all that I have worked to achieve for very nearly my entire schooling thus far. When I walk across the stage in now less than 4 months, I choose whether or not any more diplomas reach my fingertips. There is no more required school, monotonous American History classes, which I must say that it's quite sad how little American History I have memorized when I think I've had that class every year since I was 8 years old.
A new chapter starts. 2011 will be a launching year filled with new assignments. In a tight job market, I will find a job. While reading Proverbs 2 as it corresponded with the 2nd of January, the 21st verse spoke to my heart.
"For only the godly will live in the land, and those with integrity will remain in it."
In an economy still working so hard to improve itself, God has promised the "land" to the godly. For those unemployed or soon looking for full time jobs, preferably in a field our hearts are passionate about, there is a promise of occupation. Occupation of the land in our chosen occupation. I have seen the Lord's faithfulness so huge in 2010. It's sad how often I look back and see God's hand in my life after the fact when I should have been sure that his hand was mediating each and every circumstance.
A friend recently said she doesn't like making New Year's resolutions because that opens the door to failure. Unfortunately, you could place me here as well. If I make a resolution and don't follow through, it's one more item I didn't get to check off. I'd rather have New Years "options." That way if they don't take place no one really feels defeated.
But what's a year without goals? And I do have a few...
2011 will be a year with big changes.
I get a big girl diploma that gives me a big girl degree.
I get to put my big girl pants on and get a big girl job.
I get to pay big girl bills with the big girl money a full time job with a salary gives.
This is the start of a new decade, metaphorically and literally. Much change coming my way. This year I go from being called "Nicole" on a daily basis to the ever esteemed "Miss Allen." And you know you've become an adult when people aren't using your first name anymore.
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